Reiter’s Block Year in Review: 2025

2025: The year I made a profit from my poetry.

Whew, 2025. One day in your courts is like unto a thousand years…and not in a fun way.

I am determined to live my best life until I’m hauled off to the transgender re-education camp. More cats, more sex, more shiny things. As a friend said, darkly, it’s better to be visible so they’ll notice when we’ve been disappeared.

This year I discovered the life-changing magic of not writing a novel. I made a lot of collage art from erotic magazines, one example of which will be on the cover of Introvert Pervert, my poetry collection forthcoming from The Word Works in this spring. Come to our book launch at the AWP Conference in Baltimore, 5:30 PM on Friday, March 6.

Some of my perverted poems received a Massachusetts Cultural Council grant and an award from the Saints & Sinners Literary Festival in New Orleans. I also spoke on a panel about genderqueer poetry at the Massachusetts Poetry Festival in “Witch City” (Salem), and taught collage art and Tarot workshops at Easton Mountain. In September, I began Year 3 of the Temple of Witchcraft Mystery School, shamanic and shadow work. I took my erotic magic to a new level at a week-long Body Electric retreat.

We’ve had an unprecedented flourishing of family connections this year with people we’re actually related to. What a surreal, wonderful experience to have dinner over Thanksgiving weekend with my husband and son, my stepmom, my dad and my mom-of-choice Roberta (a/k/a my late mother’s two exes). We also had festive meals with my cousins-in-law and my maternal first cousin’s family.

We look more alike than ever!

The “Ice Cream Museum” in Soho was a rip-off but I loved the decor.

The Young Master is in 8th grade. He is obsessed with all things Apple and AI-related. His new hobbies are mixing song transitions on his Brazilian phonk playlists, and making the colored lights in his room synchronize with the music. He talked me into getting an Apple Watch which I like more than I expected. I’d held out because it seemed like a tool of the surveillance state, but that’s inescapable anyway, so I might as well feel like Dick Tracy and answer phone calls by shouting at my wrist.

This will be the last Reiter’s Block post in its current format. Early next year, JendiReiter.com will relaunch with a new design from our friends at Tunnel 7. No more creaky WordPress site! Instead of a blog, Reiter’s Block will eventually reappear as a free Substack newsletter. The old posts will be archived on the new website. Thank you for following my 19-year journey on this site from angry Anglican lady to transsexual socialist witch. Come fight fascism with me in 2026!

THEODORE!!

In Memoriam: Richard Conway Jackson

Richard Conway Jackson, a dear friend and longtime contributor to this blog, died in his home in Lake Los Angeles on December 1, at the age of 66.

Richard and his wife Vanity with our family at the Whately Inn for my 50th birthday in 2022.

Richard was a self-taught poet, tattoo artist, and car mechanic. He was working on an autobiographical novel about growing up in a gang-ridden neighborhood in the Los Angeles area. I greatly enjoyed reading the first section of this funny and hair-raising saga of his adventures with his siblings. Richard took every opportunity to mentor at-risk youth so that they might avoid the mistakes that had landed him in prison. Introspective and articulate, he shared books with other inmates and helped them write their appeals. He created the cover art for my two poetry chapbooks, Swallow (Amsterdam Press, 2009) and Barbie at 50 (Cervena Barva Press, 2010), and Carolyn Howard-Johnson’s poetry collection Imperfect Echoes (2015).

A practitioner of the Norse neo-pagan religion Ásatrú, Richard had a warrior’s heart, always protecting and encouraging those he cared about, no matter how dire his own circumstances. Among his many handmade gifts to me were an altar cloth hand-drawn with Celtic knots and a set of rune stones. His letters kept my spirits up during our difficult journey to adopt a child. He loved our son’s independent spirit and mechanical inventiveness, and sent him great presents such as a buildable model of a V-8 engine. We often talked about sending Shane out to learn auto repair from him as a teenager, but we never had that chance.

Richard with Adam and Shane and a pal from the V.A. at the Getty Museum in Los Angeles, February 2023.

We first connected in 2006 when he found an ad for our Winning Writers website in a magazine and mailed me a letter with some poems. He was serving 25-to-life in the California prison system for receiving a stolen motorcycle, due to the harsh three-strikes sentencing law in effect at the time. Thanks to a voter referendum in 2012, the sentencing law was retroactively repealed for nonviolent offenders like Richard…but the state made him wait another nine years for his freedom by constantly postponing his early release hearing.

When we met in person for the first time in 2022, we thought we’d gotten our miracle. He had married a wonderful woman, reconnected with his daughters and grandchildren, and started an auto repair shop, just as he had always planned. Tragically, right around Thanksgiving of that year, he and Vanity were in a terrible accident when the car in front of them turned left without signaling on the highway. She was killed and he lost his leg.

With the help of his daughters, Richard bravely tried to continue his business, but working on cars was physically challenging for a man in his 60s with a disability. In a move worthy of Javert from Les Miz, the state of California then decided to pursue criminal charges against him for the accident that had destroyed his future. We got him a lawyer who helped him receive a sentence of community service, still no easy task when he lived hours away from the food pantry where they assigned him to work.

Though financially struggling, he sounded well-supported by loved ones when I last spoke to him on his birthday this June. He got joy from his pet dog and piglets, and was excited about a new grandchild on the way.

I wish I had reached out to him more in the intervening months. The regular rhythm of our letters when he was inside had given way to intermittent texts and phone calls. Like a lot of folks who are incarcerated for decades, he might have been overwhelmed by suddenly having to create structure for his life. Simply trying to keep the lights on left him no time for the creative writing, reading, and artwork that had sustained him in prison.

Early this month, I learned of his passing from a Facebook post from his sister in Tennessee. I messaged her to get her number and we spoke for a long time. The family hadn’t wanted me to find out that way, but they didn’t have my contact information. His sister told me amazing stories about the hardships they’d suffered as kids and what a great protective big brother Richard had been. The exact cause of death isn’t yet known. She said she thought he “just gave up.”

The family has started a GoFundMe to pay for Richard’s funeral expenses. If you’ve been touched by his poetry that I’ve shared on this blog over the years, please consider helping them out.

Having fun with the art at Mass MoCA in 2022.

 

December Links Roundup: Trans of Green Gables

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Last one of the year! Has 2025 seemed to anyone else like it lasted 1,000 years?

Anne of Green Gables fans have been queering the title character’s passionate friendship with bestie Diana for a long time, but do you know about her genderqueer son Walter? In this essay at the Canadian Broadcasting Company’s CBC Arts website, “In Anne of Green Gables, I found the kindred spirits and queer prophets I needed,” Julia Smeaton takes a deep dive into the sequels.

Just like Anne, Walter was creative, upstanding and judged for being overly sensitive to both beauty and horror.

To the characters in 1900s Prince Edward Island, Walter’s unconventional masculinity was a problem that needed fixing. Anne didn’t see it that way, and it seemed Montgomery didn’t either.

As an imaginative and sneakily morbid kid, I saw myself in Anne’s fevered affection for Diana Barry and related to her fear that growing up would irreparably change their friendship. I liked that she kept Gilbert hanging for so long, even when society pressured her to accept his proposal.

Similarly, Una Meredith’s love for Walter is unrequited, and he simply doesn’t grow out of his passion for poetry. When he confesses to his younger sister that he feels he should’ve been born a girl, I was reminded of Anne arriving at Green Gables when the Cuthberts were expecting a boy…

…In the spring of 1942, Montgomery wrote The Blythes Are Quoted — a disturbing, bleak collection of short stories, poetry and dialogue involving murder, infidelity, antipathy and deception.

One of the lighter stories, The Cheated Child, set when the Blythe children are still young, is about a neglected orphan named Pat who feels a “strange kinship” with Walter. Pat’s aunt does not approve of the boys’ friendship and calls Walter a sissy. Pat, in turn, feels “that he loved Walter Blythe with all his heart.”

Walter was my favorite character in the later, lesser-known books about Anne’s children. I was crushed when he died in World War I at the end of Rilla of Ingleside, a weak entry in the series (in my opinion) because of its advocacy for that war. Author L.M. Montgomery had a complex life with personal tragedies and mental health struggles, leading her to create those sensitive outsider characters that we love. Her prolific fiction is touched with a realistic darkness alongside its cozy settings and sentimental endings.

I think Walter Blythe would have appreciated this poetic fable about the short life of the Luna moth, “Seven Nights’ Flight,” written by Ann Collins on her blog Microseasons. I learned from this piece that the moth only has a week to live and find a mate once it emerges from the chrysalis.

Moth cannot fly. He hangs beneath a Hickory leaf, feeling time bearing down on him the way a candle consumes its own height. His caterpillar hunger still churns, but he has no mouth now. No means to add one more hour to his life. The fuse continues to burn, even at rest.

Beneath his leafy shelter, beetles climb up from the wet darkness. They’ve come to keep vigil with him. Moth of Green Fire, they ask, why do you burn without moving?

My wings only know how to spend themselves, he answers. And Beetles understand.

They also have invisible work—love that no one counts.

Laia Asieo Odo’s story “Where Memory Meets the Sea” was reprinted at Electric Literature from the new anthology We Will Rise Again: Speculative Stories and Essays on Protest, Resistance, and Hope. In this painful but uplifting story, citizens of a war-torn country are made to forget their lost loved ones and the violence that took them, but recover the knowledge temporarily when they are in the water. Going to the sea becomes an act of defiance and faith. The conceit reminded me of how Israel cuts off Palestinians’ access to the sea, preventing them from catching fish for food and livelihood, at the same time as opponents of the genocide are being silenced by false accusations of antisemitism.

On that note, I appreciated Josina Manu Maltzman’s essay “Protective Presence in the West Bank,” which won the Plentitudes Prize for Nonfiction. The author was part of a team of Jewish volunteers shielding Palestinian shepherds from abuse by Israeli soldiers in Masafer Yatta.

This shepherd and his brother Mosab live on the edge of the village, closest to the encroaching Israeli settlement Ma’on. I’ve spent many hours with Mosab. His accounts are disturbing. Around ten years ago the settlers laid out poison in the fields where he grazes his sheep, killing many, along with wild animals who also ate the poison. Then last year, settlers broke all the legs of the sheep in his neighbor’s flock, killing them. This finally drove out his neighbor. One settler told Mosab, “If I see someone open the gate to your sheep, I will kill them all.”

…This whole area of Masafer Yatta is only about twelve square miles and is comprised of twenty Palestinian villages. The region is considered Area C, which means that Israel has legal jurisdiction over it. Near the end of 1999, Masafer Yatta was declared a closed military zone and Israel began imposing eviction orders to all the families who had been there for generations. At the same time, Israeli settlements—open only to Jews and illegal under international law—began expanding in the closed area.

The residents of Masafer Yatta have banded together to fight the eviction in the courts, and to try to stave off settler expansion into their lands by refusing to leave. During this over-twenty-year-long court battle, the residents have been denied permission to build on their lands: no wells, no additions, no improvements. The Israeli military regularly issues demolition orders on people’s homes, livestock pens, solar panels—anything that is part of day-to-day living for this community’s way of life—while at the same time settlements with pools and playgrounds grow and grow.

With the Epstein Files in the news, Jewish Currents re-shared this 2019 article by Ari M. Brostoff and Noah Kulwin, “The Right Kind of Continuity: Jeffrey Epstein and the sexual politics of Jewish philanthropy”. Their thesis is that mainstream American Jewish nonprofits, largely male-led, have emphasized a patriarchal, pro-natalist kind of intergenerational Jewish continuity. Such organizations are then not well-positioned to call out sexism among their big donors: “the Jewish philanthropic world’s own ongoing attempts to engineer reproductive behavior within the community have deeply stultified its sexual politics.” I learned from this article that Victoria’s Secret founder Leslie Wexner was both a major Jewish philanthropist and a close associate of Epstein.

The demographer Steven M. Cohen, who produced countless statistical reports on the community at the behest of the donor class, liked to put it bluntly: if institutions wanted American Jewish life to continue, they would have to prioritize the goals of “creating more Jewish marriages and filling more Jewish baby carriages.”

Feminist critiques of continuity discourse have become increasingly audible within the mainstream Jewish world, intensifying last year after Cohen himself was accused of serial sexual harassment. “How surprised can we be that a man whose entire worldview hinged on women having more babies turned out to have no respect for women when it came to personal sexual boundaries?” the writer Rokhl Kafrissen asked in the Forward.

Meanwhile, D.L. Mayfield and Krispin Mayfield have a relevant series on their blog Strongwilled about the similarities between Christian purity culture and pedophiles’ self-justifying belief systems.

On her Substack, Feminist Killjoys, philosopher Sara Ahmed returned to a fairy tale that has become iconic for her work, “The Willful Child” by the Brothers Grimm. This Teutonic authoritarian fable tells of a child who was so disobedient that her dead hand reached out of her grave and would not rest until her mother had given her hand the beating she deserved. Ahmed has reclaimed this story as an image of continuing to protest injustice.

The arm inherits the willfulness of the child insofar as it will not be kept down, insofar as it keeps coming up, acquiring a life of its own, even after the death of the body of which it is a part.

Willfulness involves persistence in the face of having been brought down, where simply to “keep going” or to “keep coming up” is to be stubborn and obstinate.

Mere persistence can be an act of disobedience.

That’s why there is nothing mere about persistence.

The most persistent people in my email inbox don’t actually exist. Humorist Daniel Lavery speaks for me when he writes, “The Worst Part About Publishing a Book in 2025 Is the New Kind of Spam.” AI has made it possible for bad actors to turn out fake book club solicitations that momentarily raise your hopes that someone read your book:

Once I see the email is signed “Curator Miracle,” sent from “el*************@***il.com,” or contains a sentence like “It’s both a celebration and a diagnosis of community” I know where I’m at, of course, but those five seconds make all the difference in the world. I don’t yet have a protective spam filter for someone emailing me to say that they just reread something of mine. It’s not that AI has made spam emails significantly better, but they do read significantly differently, especially at first glance, and it’s taking me just long enough to catch on that I’m reliably devastated a few times a week.

And they’re negging me! They’re hinting darkly about how other people just don’t understand Women’s Hotel, which has led them to feel sorry for me and want to unleash their bot army (of “40 new, deeply considered responses which reframe how readers engaged with the work”)…

And now, here are some good poems and stories that I’m pretty sure came from real human brains.

The great and powerful Ariana Reines, occultist and feminist poet, has a poem from her newest collection The Rose (Graywolf Press, 2025) at Poetry Daily, “The Hanged Man”:

After lust comes meditation
After love, hallucination

Not all of us seek the same thing
When we kneel here, & “that has to be

Okay”
Like when I fisted X at the mini golf

Course at Mount Sodom campground
Which he chose, of course, for its name

I loved the formal inventiveness of “Poem Wedged into the Brittlebush or Poem That Eats What Happened” by Anna Flores, a prizewinner at Frontier Poetry. She uses repetition to break down and rewrite the story of her brother’s death in battle, mimicking how the bereaved family might obsessively pick apart a memory to make sense of it, in vain.

At The Masters Review, Annesha Mitha’s short story “Valedictorian” depicts a 14-year-old Indian girl’s self-initiation into the contradictions of womanhood, with a decision that brings her closer to understanding her traditional mother, while opening a fault line between herself and her best friend. The competitiveness and uncomfortable power differentials between the girls felt really true to my experience of friendship at that age.

The Missouri Review’s online Blast featured these humorous and angsty flash pieces from Crockett Doob, “Social Media Proxy” and “Lukewarm Mess”. A taste of the latter:

Three guys sitting around a table, talking about our love lives. We’d just left a group therapy about this and had been encouraged to bond after.

So here we were, bonding away, sitting in a cafeteria-like restaurant in Brooklyn, waiting for our food.

The new guy sat across from us. He was small, muscular, wearing a tank top to show off his arms. He told us about his ex, his heartbreak, how he was still in touch with her even though she was on another continent.

“I’m back on the apps,” he said. “But the apps suck.”

This was exactly what I feared when I started going to these groups: sitting in dark restaurants, listening to musclemen complain about the apps.

But who was I to judge? Just because I didn’t do the apps, I was no better. I was in my own pickle.

I also recommend these Missouri Review Poems of the Week by Bruce Bond, “Incursions of Light 13 and 14”.

Finally, enjoy Ally Ang’s “Autoerotic Abecedarian,” an alliterative amazement.

…Beneath the shawl of
darkness, I shape my flesh like a block of clay, all its
excess overflowing onto the sheets. The smooth
flat landscape of my chest ballooning with breath, teeth
grinding like derelict machinery. In the slick heat of
here, I become my self: an embodiment of purest
instinct.